It's a quarter after 2, Im all alone

and I am going bat-shit crazy. This next week is going to be hell on earth.
So many papers to write, so many tests, I feel like my head might explode. 

Today was Monday. Ew. ick. Up at 5 am, and I still haven't gone to bed. Oh wait, that's ANOTHER 24 hours I have been up. UGH. I dont want to keep doing this, I know it is so unhealthy, but I need to get everything done.

No more half-assing it for me.

Tomorrow, i also have a crammed day. It is my first doctor's appointment with an "adult" clinic. I am secretly very glad this is happening. I need to get in control of my health and this is the perfect oppertunity to begin! Maybe I will ask them for resources on time management....ahaha, and then I won't be up when the sun is about to rise again.

What does this mean? I mean..really..I drive. I am a potential hazard to the road! And this isn't just the healthcare-professional-in-training talking...if I knew someone in a sleep-deprived state like I am, I dont know if I would feel safe on the road, yknow?

It seems like everyone's life is falling apart this week too. One of my good friends in the Nursing program had some cuntbitch call her and tell her that all she does is whine and complain and that she shouldn't. UH HELLO? ARE YOU IN NURSING? NO? STFU.

It also seems like everyone finds a douche bag friend like that during the first year, including me. It is also SAD to say that the person I found to be a royal pain in my ass turned out to be someone I considered a best friend. Now, all I can think about is how to delete them off facebook without causing a major scandal in our mutual circle of friends. Not that we even have much of that anymore.... I need to find more people that are focused in life.. like, not just nursing students, because too much of one thing can bring you down...but just GOOD people. People who are positive, career-driven, cheery, have realistic expectations for life, are responsible... I just wanna find some of those out there.