Nursing

has taken over my life. The past few days have found me in this panic-stricken-zombie phase in which I just keep running through a never-ending list of things to do in my head, and it is just freaking me out!!!

On the relationship end of things, Colin and I have made some progress...not much though. I stayed the night the other day, but I didn't even let him kiss me. We just cuddled, and he seemed really grateful to have that happen. It melted my heart a little bit. What am I even saying? He always melts my heart.

On friday, we went to this little "jam session" his friend hosted. At first, I was really apprehensive. I am such a fake-musician, it's not even funny. I own an expensive clarinet I haven't touched in 2 years, have a treble clef tattooed on my back..and yet all I have time for is medicine.
Anyways, it was a little awkward at first, but as the night rolled along, I was really satisfied to just sit there and take in all the talent around me.

Tonight is Saturday, and all I did was work, and now I am trying to speed through some nursing homework, BAH. I hate this shit, it is so MUNDANE. It is NEVER ENDING. It is HEARTBREAKING because I will never actually learn anything until I step into the clinical setting!
Really, I am just trying to pass the time waiting for Colin to get off work, which will be 1am, so we can proceed with our phone date.

Yes, we have phone dates. <3